Thursday, June 2, 2011

The Seriousness of Life, and others. Originally posted in 2007 or so.

Once upon a time, there was a banana.  This banana was a world traveler who especially liked going to Bimini.  (Don't ask, it's fiction, bananas can have personality and the like)
This banana, realized, that it probably shouldn't be traveling as much, as it could end up being classified as a terrorist so it decided to stay in bimini, Take up skateboarding and sell non-fruity drinks.
My eye keeps twitching and it won't stop.  Damn my eye!
The coconut began to think, and when it did i vanished in a cloud of illogic, as coconuts aren't allowed to think. The lime arrived 2 hours too late.

This story is dedicated to everyone, for no reason other than i just fucking felt like it. (what does IT feel like anyways?  Can you see it?  Feel it?  Hear it today?  If you can't than it doesn't matter anyway.)


I was thinking today about the people in my life.  There are many different kinds of people, and they each fill a different aspect of my wild and varied (and slightly off) personality.
There are some whom i consider family, people whom i'm close to, yet some are still very far away.  Some of these include my many wonderful internet friends, people who i've never met in person, but know that when i do finally meet them there won't be any strange awkwardness or false shyness.  Just the love that has been expressed via text and phone calls.
There are others who seem to keep me young, even when i'm feeling very old.  Those who remind me of who i used to be when i was younger, and bring out those aspects of me.  Those people i cherish, and even though there was a disconnect for a time, we seem to have picked our friendship back up, right where it left off.
There are some who i have some things in common with, like parenting, who i can go to for empathy, sympathy and commiseration.  It's nice to know that i'm truly not alone in the frustrations and joys of life experiences.
There are new friends, who i don't see much, but still fill an essential role in helping me express myself, or at least some aspect of myself.  Usually one that i keep in hiding and only bring out for special occasions.
There are my close friends, who i know i can turn to when i'm lost. And when i'm not.  There are very few people whom i feel like i can just be and not have to worry about reigning myself in.  Or watching what i say.  I love these people, more than they will ever know.
I speak of loving people often.  I find that people are not told that they are loved and appreciated enough.  I love everyone in my life, each in their own individual way.  I try to give as much as i receive, and even though sometimes it is fairly subtle, it's there.
There are people whom i miss dearly, and have left a hole in me which i can not fill.  These people need to know they are still loved, with as much intensity as there was when we were together, even though for various reasons, we can't be together, even as friends.  It hurts, but i will always treasure the memories that were made.
So if you are reading this, and recognize yourself in any of my descriptions, or know you are there somewhere, even if you can't place it, know that you are loved, appreciated and needed.  And no matter how long it's been since we've talked, for whatever reason, know that you make me smile when i think of you.  Even if i just talked to you 10 minutes ago. Or 10 years ago.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Written January 31, 2009, but is still very relevant.

What is success?
To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by
a healthy child, a garden patch
or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed
easier because you have lived;
This is to have succeeded.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

I read this in a book, and it touched me.  I have always lived by the credo that if i can make one person laugh per day, then my day is complete.  From past experiences i have learned that you can't help everyone, but can help some.  Sometimes just by sharing a differing opinion and making them think.  Every person i've ever known has taught me something, some life lesson that has engraved itself into my psyche.  Not all have been positive, not all have been painless, but all have had an effect on me. 

I try to live to learn, and i'm trying to teach my kids the same.  Everything in life has something you can learn from it, even if you don't realize the lesson until later.  Through the years i have done some incredibly stupid things, as well as made some very smart decisions.  All of these have been influenced by people, and situations i've experienced in life. 

Every friend i've ever had has been loved by me.  Many never knew it, i'm trying to make sure all the people currently active in my life are aware.  Love is not always romantic, love is not always fiery. Love is sometimes calm, steady and a pillar of strength.  I love and am loved.  There are some people who i love from afar, as it's too hard to be close again.  There are some people who i love closely.  All are held close to my heart.

I have made friends via the interwebs who live all over the world.  I wish i could gather them up and being them to my home, for there are some i would love to just be able to hug, whenever, wherever.  They all know they are loved by me.

I have no idea why i'm writing about love again, i find when i'm feeling depressed that it's hard to accept that i'm loveable, so i guess i want to make sure that everyone else knows that they are.
So, even if i've never talked to you, met you, or just communicated with you by text, know that you are loved. 


Tuesday was a clusterfuck. And that's all i have to say about that.

Wednesday and Thursday are OLD writings i culled from the past using my time machine. I will write a rousing review of 3days and 2 nights with 66 5th graders in an old military fort on Friday afternoon, for your education and enjoyment.

Have a great rest of the week!